Merry Christmas Darling

Merry Christmas, darling

We're apart, that's true

But I can dram

And in my dreams

I'm Christmasing with you

                                 ~The Carpenters

Looking out of the office window, he sighed. It was Christmas Eve. But more importantly, it was his beloved’s birthday. As he stood there in silence, the snow silently falling down, he knew it was time for him to go, even though he didn’t want to. It wasn’t fair. Instead of going out into the cold and snow, he would much rather go into the living room or kitchen and sweep her off her feet into his arms, but there would never be any more of that. Never again could he look into her brown eyes and tell her how much he loved her and never again would he have stolen moments with the woman he called his wife. Sighing again, he knew he owed her this much and in silence, he crossed the room, pulled on his coat and left.

~

                Kneeling down, he brushed away the snow from the lightly colored stone that bore not only his last name, but her first name as well as he sighed and laid down a bouquet of the reddest roses he could find. As the snow danced around him, landing softly in his hair and on his face, he blinked away his unshed tears. Running his fingers down the cold marble of this reality, he wondered, he hoped and he prayed, and as he did, a lone tear finally escaped and splashed down in front of him on the stone, and for whatever reason, a quote he had heard only a week before popped into his mind:

If a single tear fell from your eyes into the ocean

And then washed up on some far and distant shore

I would still recognize that teardrop

For in the end that tear would still be yours

                After reflecting on it for a few moments, he knew it was time to go and as he placed a two finger kiss on her stone, he sighed again as he stood. “Happy Birthday my beloved” he whispered, as he turned and headed back for the car. As he started the long decent out of the silent cemetery, he turned on the radio and found a song that matched his emotions perfectly, The Carpenters “Merry Christmas Darling.”